It was no accident that I was born where I was or grew to be a woman with aspirations of love and cherishing, it's a done thing......reading Mills and Boon love stories, watching movies that depict Love as the be all and end all of life one tends to aspire for the same! And so did I ! My letters to my chosen one spoke of a great life together, believed so utterly in each word, credulous to the core....letters I wrote sitting next to the blue seas of Mauritius, near the Spinx in Cairo or in the enthralling beauty of Beirut.......the dreams never stopped, cutting short a career as an air stewardess (a job I adored and enjoyed thoroughly). The foregone conclusion was that my choice was great....Linda Goodman's sun signs verified the combo.......well, a different story was waiting on the sidelines! It just did not work out and on-going effort bore little fruit.......why does one not face things head-on and make choices which make life easier......dogmas, a will not to rock the boat come what may, social systems and one's inner fears take precedence over all else and a lifetime turns to dust.....no blame game, just that it was not meant to be! It all looked perfect till the edifice began crumbling! We make desperate attempts to salvage, douce that raging fire.......burn ourselves in the bargain! I look around me and see marriages, partners thrive despite...and here was a couple that seemed great....all the photos of holidays together, partying, hosting, entertaining, having delightful kids, branded clothes bespeak of a great life! But what is underneath is known to none other than the heart that bleeds! This disillusionment was the beginning of a new Me! My journey began maybe eons ago, possibly in another planet but crystallisation took place in this body. Crystallisation of a new perspective....like the lava that flows out of a seething volcano and slowly sets into new shapes and dimensions!
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