recall....reaffirmation

So much of life has gone by, loads of time wasted.......today I was going thru my books of Philosophy, some flipped thru some read several times over.......learnt a lot, absorbed a lot....but I let it all be set aside, went to great heights in my spiritual journey, and it seems a lot needs to be explored further, a lot reaffirmed...and time seems short. I have to get on with it! Probably writing is bringing it all back. Life has been a tough journey, relationships overtaken what was blossoming. A true seeker is made either due to past life samskaras or vairagya due to experiences in this world. I believe I am effected by both. And till I breathe I need to en cash on both. One Realized Being some years ago said to the individual accompanying me....this lady needs to learn to smile....her smile belies the melancholy within!So very true! He always wrote on his letter pad with a green sketch pen......his letters are pasted in my room to remind me of what could have been and has not yet happened! Hope I can achieve it, while keeping a balance! Just some random thoughts!
Tomorrow I want to delve into some of my favorite childhood memories to reaffirm, to believe in that unconditional love that each person craves for.....not love for a purpose, not love because one looks beautiful or is efficient or stands out in a social circle......just because you are important for that soul in you!