A Birth with the path being chartered from previous attachments.....

2nd April 2013 is the 31st year of existence of a Soul that searched for a being that mattered beyond the gross body. If you recall, I have spoken about my childhood and the desire to spend time with myself...and supremely content in doing so. Years ago I was in the backyard of our home in Sahajanpur one late afternoon....the back yard was connected to a beautiful forest in the Army Cantonment. I felt a beckoning, and insistence that I reach out.....a strange feeling rose up in me...and I scampered back into the house! Well, I wasn't afraid of the wilderness.....Sahajanpur was a place where we played in the mangroves, sat on the trees and ate delicious mangoes and had fun in the open lands of the cantonment....but this was different...an unknown entity drawing me with its invisible Energy. The incidence faded away in my memory. However, when I was in the deeper states of sadhana in the late 80s a recall of past lives manifested (this happens when one sojourns in Swadhistan Chakra), This Soul's attachment to me manifested due to a previous birth when It was my mother who, out of desperation and an unhappy marriage committed suicide.....but searched me out due to deep attachment to me, reached out to me as a subtle spirit and finally manifested in my womb. I was happy to experience the little being within my womb totally unaware of this background. I did everything I could to give love to this being, ate the right food, nurtured the little one in my womb. Life was lonely, my husband was busy in his own world, an alien environment with people I did not understand.....but this child and its development gave me reason to live! I would listen to the chants from the Bhagvat Gita as a daily ritual.......I believe it has impacted  the personality and samskaras. She is an individual who wishes to live life out of the box, has the courage to do so and deserve all the blessings. I have always called her my baby with the golden heart.....let her journey be safe and happy! She must understand that life is bittersweet....and every exxperience leads to emancipation. Faith in the Ishta and Self is paramount in this journey of life!