clarity.....!

Life is all about Dharma, Artha, Kama and Moksha! Blessed am I to get Khadgamala which charters a pathway to all 4 aspects....I am not clueless, the path is assigned, the central issue is the mind used appropriately with vigilance......not to add on tasks but fulfill the important ones while preparing for flight! The most important are the three Souls I have been instrumental in bringing into this planet.......and a genuine effort at Karma Yoga.....not running hither thither, not trying to use the multi-faceted skills I have been given  every which way! Limit the ripples and not add more is to be my Mantra! And the inner search also needs to be such that the minimal ripples disturb the Stillness I need. They say half the battle is won when one realizes the folly! Srijan qualifies for my time provided it is done with nishkama bhava......all else needs to be dumped! And of course giving nurturing to the three sweet Souls who are on the threshold and need to take flight in their own paths....that is my realization before I end this day! Redefining Life and the Adda of Living, creating Order, Systems in Sadhana, Reconstructing, Restructuring rather than holding my head in dismay.... is the right step forward......! 

But surely, Satyarupa will be reborn!

Warning bells?

I had a 'more than real life' dream early this morning. Well, I hardly slept, hence most of the time went dreaming about this Chinese Invasion into our country! No network! No contact could be established,a series of events unfolding, creating a black horror! I have visuals of a row of rooms with doors on either side                 but on one side the latches removed and soldiers in the adjoining area able to enter at will! No privacy, no right to do anything.....in other words Will jammed! And amid all this I kept cursing myself for not working evenhandedly towards Moksha! I woke up in cold sweat and thanked my starts for the country I am born in, the opportunities I have had. The Vedic System advocates that the place, family, and amenities one is born with are based on previous sanchit karma and prarabdh, but what we strive for based on Viveka, exposure and sankalpa charters our path now and thereafter!  But, I surely have to take this seriously! !! The sequence in the serial Devon ke Dev is thus positioned to make me feel the urgency of my task......eons lost, energies dissipated, found and lost the Glory! A one-pointed task to be taken on diligently.....not because I have a guide reprimanding me, but because it is now or never! The next two days need to give some answers.....! The glimpse of Glory that came Satyarupa's way....did she let go of it, or did Karma need to be followed thru'?
And what of future plans?
Every Realized Soul I had the good fortune to meet and gain insight from.....reprimanded me for dissipating energies, urged me to let go, warned me that it is now or never! At the biological age of 59, wake up, Satyarupa.......this Soul can yet do it.....the 8-Fold Path and the Inner Guru, Dakshinamurti........a strong sankalpa not to compromise, not to lose a single breath, not to let this body disintegrate without moving ahead towards emancipation.....but with surrender and bhakti.....no ego-effort, sahaj, effortless...like the floating in space I once experienced!
How many more births, emotional links, duties and desires are you going to weigh yourself down with?????
Take flight now! 

Opportunity to energize!

While I planned to write about my parents, grandparents and in-laws in my next blog......the moment demands otherwise. We are in the midst of Navratri.....a time to worship the Kinetic Energy which keeps the World going Intelligently and with Unsurpassed Power. My foray into Navratri started off as an awareness of sights and sounds around me. I had no idea, like a child unwittingly I got immersed in these 9 days of excitement and joy. As I recall, my first real experience was in Ganeshpuri, the ashram of Swami Muktananda (located near Mumbai) It was at atmosphere of romance with the Gods, beautiful flowers and visuals in which sadhakas from the world-over were involved. We spent the entire night decorating the beautiful ashram with flowers. My elder two kids were tiny but totally enthused by the environs. My elder daughter was chosen as one of the kanyas to be worshipped....she looked beautiful in the red silk she was gifted.....those were divine moments! Factually, as I understand it, each of these 9 days  one ought to, in a state of pratyahara withdraw from all worldly issues and  attempt to enhance/fortify/awaken latent energies prevalent in the psychic points in the Karan Sharira! That is the  purpose.....not just dancing, singing, performing the Garba Dance or dissipating energies! It is a time to apply the yogic science for emancipation! Since that moment years ago, it has been a time of discovery of potential within, amazingly I have a new experience each time......an on-going journey.

My tribute to my elders in my next blog....and the role, negative or positive they played in my present day ME! 

A Birth with the path being chartered from previous attachments.....

2nd April 2013 is the 31st year of existence of a Soul that searched for a being that mattered beyond the gross body. If you recall, I have spoken about my childhood and the desire to spend time with myself...and supremely content in doing so. Years ago I was in the backyard of our home in Sahajanpur one late afternoon....the back yard was connected to a beautiful forest in the Army Cantonment. I felt a beckoning, and insistence that I reach out.....a strange feeling rose up in me...and I scampered back into the house! Well, I wasn't afraid of the wilderness.....Sahajanpur was a place where we played in the mangroves, sat on the trees and ate delicious mangoes and had fun in the open lands of the cantonment....but this was different...an unknown entity drawing me with its invisible Energy. The incidence faded away in my memory. However, when I was in the deeper states of sadhana in the late 80s a recall of past lives manifested (this happens when one sojourns in Swadhistan Chakra), This Soul's attachment to me manifested due to a previous birth when It was my mother who, out of desperation and an unhappy marriage committed suicide.....but searched me out due to deep attachment to me, reached out to me as a subtle spirit and finally manifested in my womb. I was happy to experience the little being within my womb totally unaware of this background. I did everything I could to give love to this being, ate the right food, nurtured the little one in my womb. Life was lonely, my husband was busy in his own world, an alien environment with people I did not understand.....but this child and its development gave me reason to live! I would listen to the chants from the Bhagvat Gita as a daily ritual.......I believe it has impacted  the personality and samskaras. She is an individual who wishes to live life out of the box, has the courage to do so and deserve all the blessings. I have always called her my baby with the golden heart.....let her journey be safe and happy! She must understand that life is bittersweet....and every exxperience leads to emancipation. Faith in the Ishta and Self is paramount in this journey of life!

recall....reaffirmation

So much of life has gone by, loads of time wasted.......today I was going thru my books of Philosophy, some flipped thru some read several times over.......learnt a lot, absorbed a lot....but I let it all be set aside, went to great heights in my spiritual journey, and it seems a lot needs to be explored further, a lot reaffirmed...and time seems short. I have to get on with it! Probably writing is bringing it all back. Life has been a tough journey, relationships overtaken what was blossoming. A true seeker is made either due to past life samskaras or vairagya due to experiences in this world. I believe I am effected by both. And till I breathe I need to en cash on both. One Realized Being some years ago said to the individual accompanying me....this lady needs to learn to smile....her smile belies the melancholy within!So very true! He always wrote on his letter pad with a green sketch pen......his letters are pasted in my room to remind me of what could have been and has not yet happened! Hope I can achieve it, while keeping a balance! Just some random thoughts!
Tomorrow I want to delve into some of my favorite childhood memories to reaffirm, to believe in that unconditional love that each person craves for.....not love for a purpose, not love because one looks beautiful or is efficient or stands out in a social circle......just because you are important for that soul in you!