The reasons get clear as time goes by..."why" becomes irrelevant! Each pain has become a stepping stone! My disillusionment with life lead to a need to learn Yoga...the search lead to Monghyr situated in the most dangerous zone of Bihar...I went despite blockages....the stupendous course began, the environment was tough....the founder, Swami Satyananda never met me....all my free time was spent in chanting the Gayatri Mantra....that was the prime mantra obtained from my Aryasamagic background. One fine day Swami Satsanghi. ..(my colleague and batch mate from Airindia now turned sanayasi and secretary to Swamiji) introduced me to Him. He said I know her and can give you the background of her previous births too! I was surprised! That truly began my journey! During the Course in Teacher's Training in 1987 I took Mantra Diksha which culminated in another DIKSHA (karmasanyas) to be a sanyasin while in the ashram and I was named Satyarupa! The experiences started after that....exotic and mysterious! At times beyond all logic! I delved into Swamiji' books and material in the well-stocked library sponging in all the information with a passion I never knew I had in me! I was from an environment of social gatherings, familial duties and designer clothes which garb you in a make believe world of "all is well" and making things work despite.....this was all so new yet so familiar! I left the ashram after my first course and was told to worship Sharda Devi....I knew nothing about this aspect of Bhakti. ...or Bhakti Yoga. In Chennai I made a discovery about Sharda Devi as connected to Rama krishna Paramhansaji.....but was directed by a mysterious set of circumstances to Shirengri Sharda Devi....the Goddess of Learning....
